Made2LoveYou

With all armor on… Written by Vanessa Koltsidas January 19, 2011 Dedicated to:  Grandma Lou Something is changing the guilt in my head – a process of FEELING some good things instead – a conscious decision – a let go of pride –a calming solution –with tears in my eyes… Pain RAGING inside me – it's still doing well – I just do not feed it – those things that can kill… The growth of my spirit – the faith in MY GOD – he stands by me daily –WITH ALL ARMOR ON – He fights off the evil – he fights for my soul – for only he knows how I am to grow! I'm thankful

With all armor on… Written by Vanessa Koltsidas January 19, 2011 Dedicated to:  Grandma Lou Something is changing the guilt in my head – a process of FEELING some good things instead – a conscious decision – a let go of pride –a calming solution –with tears in my eyes… Pain RAGING inside me – it's still doing well – I just do not feed it – those things that can kill… The growth of my spirit – the faith in MY GOD – he stands by me daily –WITH ALL ARMOR ON – He fights off the evil – he fights for my soul – for only he knows how I am to grow! I'm thankful

 October 11, 2019 You wouldn’t know it when you see me smile, the life for me was shit, and piles... I know you wouldn’t understand why am in this situation that I am. I’ll never let you see my pain, the purpose for that, I’m consumed in shame. I know my value! I know my worth! Yet sadly I just feel like dirt! Why is it I feel so comfortable in chaos completely unstable? Unhappy? Sure! But that’s not the word in describing just how much I’m hurt! Damaged goods is something I know all too well, So I do I allow this now? I have to leave! It’s overdue that I go! My sanity is at risk you know.... Impatien